Gil, you know I love you. I feel I've loved you forever. Lately, I haven't been feeling very well. Truth be told, I'm tired. Out in the desert under the car that night, I realized something - and I haven't been able to shake it. Since my father died I've spent almost my entire life with ghosts. We've been like close friends, and out there in the desert it occurred to me it was time for me to bury them.

I can't do that here.

I'm so sorry.

No matter how hard I try to fight if off, I'm left with the feeling that I have to go. I have no idea where I'm going, but I know I have to do this. If I don't, I'm afraid I'll self-destruct - and worse, you'll be there to see it happen.

Be safe, know that I tried very hard to stay. Know that you are my one and only. I'll miss you with every beat of my heart.

Our life together was the only home I've ever really had. I wouldn't trade it for anything.

I love you. I always will.

Goodbye.